Hello Doctor, I'm ready for my panic attack now. Yes, I've been studying very hard for this. I've had to overcome my normal persona of The Unsinkable Molly Brown, but I knew I could do it. Here's my Panic Attack Preparedness List:
* I've gotten up late and been 15 minutes (sometimes more) late for work every day for the past couple of months.
* I've continued at my job that has a 1-1/2 hour commute (each way) without looking very hard for a new job.
* I've taken things too personally at work and considered myself incompetent when things don't work out, even though I've done everything possible to make things run smoothly and projects just break down in other departments.
* I've had trouble sleeping due to the stress that is more or less self-induced.
* I've continued in my volunteer position with my daughter's soccer club even though I don't have the time for it.
* I've taken it personally every times my kids have a fight and I don't know how to make it better.
I'm sure there are other things I'm failing to mention now, but my memory is terrible. Which I also consider a personal failure, even though I've always been this way and I'm pretty sure it's just something I have to accept and work around without taking it personally. I see a theme here of taking things (which I can't control) personally.
Oh, life in general has thrown me some curve-balls that just make me even more prepared for my nervous breakdown. Thanks, life! You're always ready to help, aren't you?
Happy Freaking Wednesday, Folks. Sorry I'm so negative today.